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an old friend.blogshop indeed.good luck.you are nicer than the bball one anw. biz@school,dun fail me now.

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http://thisurlwillbesolongthatyoucantfindit.blogspot.com/2009_04_01_archive.html#4502551389816341721

think, and support.HAH!boy was I one delusioned kid.sounds like a history question being answered huh?i dun fucking care.

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and listen to your corny titles.lots of thought put into them,huh?since it took you 4hours to write it.you talk about alot of stuff.none of which,or rather, all of which, at the end of the day, conveys how distant you really are.i deleted you from my phone.im nt going to be like HCSY's stalker.i would delete you from my mind if i could.i rlly would.does anyone really ever like you?now?did they ever?or are you trapping them, pulling them to you and not letting go, you are the persistent one holding on for no reason because you're scared to be alone and you just cant do without people around you.i could be your enemy remember hatred the cbox girl?how do you know if she is not in your class,your close friend now?hm?answer me that then.i cant be bothered with you if out of 5 smses i only get 1 back,if you dont reciprocate theres nothing i can do and hence im hoping to please get you out of my motherfucking already-screwed-up life.

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if i ever liked u, it's turned to friendship already, im not sure of that. giving presents are conveying wrong msgs?really?wat if i juz lyk to do it?4 years already.who is the only one, out of that bunch of rowdy boys who foloed u everytime during morning assembly jz to sit wif, hu still kept in touch? really keep in touch?mhm?this aside, i can do wat i lyk.HCSY may nt be btr than u in anyth else.in anyth even.bt she noes more abt the world out thr, the cruel ppl, the gangsters, she noes more than u do.i can srsly consider her if she lyks me.i tink of her n i tink happy, pretty.i tink of u, and emo, moody, comes out.is it my fault i tink lyk that?cuz thats the impression ur giving out.sumday, when im adult and such, i'll look back on this, and i'll think, puppylove, childish.hell, i knew joey n me was puppylove.didnt stop me lovin wif all my heart either.

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HCSY:

u smile alot at things.dats gd.n ur aint innocent to the pt of tinking evryone is gd in dis world either.dats the x factor i tink.when i first read ur blg, i thot: camwhore.then i fell in love after knowing more.after those...talks.mayb ur jz replyin cz of my sch.maybe.those endless times we flirted,whr nth rly came out of it(yet),and u taught me to xpress, to laf.really laf.thx for that.4va.

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forbidden fruit's the sweetest.i tink thats always been the case wif u. when i knew abt OJH, i wanted u more...Now, even if the whole rowdy crowd starts lyking u again, i dun tink i'll be part of it. knowing why i was thr in the past, due to mere cmptition, sorts of lessens the desire 4 u.call it an epiphany, if u will. and for the record, ur smiles still wif me.i jz dun tink of it when i tink of u, i hv to tink of u smiling.geddit?wif HCSY, i tink of her, the smile's like a part that cant eva b removed.

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im nt gna sleep 2nite.5 hrs to go b4 sports day.

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once upon a time, there was a boy. he liked cca, but then realised the hierarchy behind it and stopped liking it.

once upon a time, there was a boy. he liked her, but found out that someone else had stolen her heart, unwittingly.

once upon a time, there was a boy. he liked going out, but got too tired.of.....everything in general.

once upon a time, there was a boy. he was me.

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i muz be crazy, tinking she'll actually add me.fkin hell, screw it all.

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whr'd u go, i miss u so;

seems like its been forever, since u've been gone

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bored.and boring.gta find a reason to wake up.everyday.anyday.HC juz dun work anymore, tho it helps.alot.u wldnt believe hw much.

see the fcuking moon and the wad stars? r they the kind u want?

sometimes i tink i wld hv been way more comfortable wif PSS.bt dats the past.and nw its the present.screw this.

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the play was nice. i envied them. maybe i will join HCJC instead. but the integrated programme leaves me with a hard choice....i wld hv to study more. so screw it, i hope i make up my mind by next yr.

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Maybe jp likes old memories too much. and maybe i should know more than just these few fhqkr. use classroom code on word of previous sentence. and why did JDMH post that holding hands pic, and what email was in that nightmare? think, and support.

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again, excuses. i dun give a fk anymore.

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danish is a fucker. lie about being busy and go play soccer instead. low also. go pangseh me make me stay back for nothing. THINK happy thoughts, please, cmon myself. sleepiness got me heck-caring everything going on nowadays. think i'll go eat n sleep now.

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shes normal now....i hope its nt a false front or that she will revert to emo self again...CHEERS, THE WORLD IS SEEMING-- IS BRIGHTER NOW. yay.

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have u thought about how others might worry about how u are and how you are?maybe this is part of growing up,feeling needy and seeking others' love?ur making ME confused, and i hate it. i hate it.

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im happy with the way things are now......are you? could you be hiding behind this serene facade?

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u made my life full of hope. thank you.

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in.

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give.

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not.

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will.

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i.

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why bother going for class gathering if theres so few people,none of which you can interact with as well nw? because i hv nthing better to do. and i can spend a day out. but j n j n s not there. which makes it pretty pointless,altho theres no pressure to act.

damn tired.

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unhappy.hope she gets the msg. marks suck.life just about manageable.

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blog,goddamit,y dun u blog?nothing emo to say?

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There are so many ways to interprete things now....step on her shoes in footstepsintherain......(r)shoe rack(r),and fill my rainbow with the colours that you like in dreamsprec.....THIS.IS.CONFUSING!!

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You think letting a guy into ur house...>alone< is nothing. I beg to differ.

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fine.so i wont promise. thanks for dashing my hopes, biatch.

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ily....inside.

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blog.

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600+ posts

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with your

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to catch up

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just

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for today.

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im gonna post till 20.

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I hate this. It's like last time, thinking about her, what she said, all the fkin time. This is soooo not helping me in life. STUDY FIRST. 

still, i want to hope.

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winterstale was ok,abit l8 tho. took my pm, np. mind telling me HW it touched u in return?

N i thought it was so much more.

I like her.alot.

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Dont give urself false hope. 

No more disappointments.

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emoing makes everything seem right. nothing goes wrong. but i dun feel peaceful. what wif the load of hmwrk n ur ignoring of me, things seem worse than b4, yet btr in some ways.

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third lang. i can do without it. 

MOVE ON-NOW!

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i am free. give me my wings, let me soar.

away.

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beyond caring.

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doing gd in ur cca is a means of being noticed and standing out, maybe it will make her proud,but dun take the chance. at any rate, it will give u more pts for cca. 

longing for company...hw unfair life seems at times.

gd times come to an end oh so fast,can i ever catch up?

641 posts now,lets see how long i take to catch up.when i do, i'll tell her my URL.

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see? i dun hv self control.

placing a note under shoe racks makes it worse. im sick of this.

i h8 hmwrk.

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I knew it. Suddenly homework grows faster than money in banks. not that money grew fast originally anyway. and poof, im overwhelmed and going to die on Monday. YAY wednesday get badge for all the stuff i didnt do in npcc but whitelied about, hehe.NOOO hvta wear uniform,damn.

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homework is starting to overwhelm me now....btr start when i get home. knowing me, sunday is gonna be a busy day.damn.

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STOP THINKING ABOUT HER.if meeting only serves as a catalyst to more fantasies and crap, THEN STOP. study n stop thinking that much. heck, playing helps,so go for it! thurs then come back....maybe it will be more normal.